Update on life.

Life is good.

I feel like just since my last post, I have grown so much as a person.  Life seems to have fallen into place and I am so excited about the upcoming year.  For starters, Logan told me he bought an engagement ring!  So sometime this year he plans on proposing.  As much as I loved Andy, what I have with Logan is so much stronger.  He is my life partner, best friend, and soul mate.  He is currently in Knoxville (of all places) completing his internship and will graduate in may.  I have plans of going back to school in August, as long as the financial aid side of things work out.  I am assistant managing at alumni hall, with lots of room for growth within the company.  But most of all, I am excited about starting my family.  Kids are a few years away, but with Logan and I planning our wedding and preparing for our future, I realize how important family is.

I am excited and have high hopes for my future.  I am finally in the perfect place in my life and I couldn't be more thrilled!

9 months.

For you my love-

You have completely changed me.

My path was fuzzy and unsure,

Then you came and renewed it.

I was a mess and could not trust,

But you brought back the best of me.

I know that I would not be the same

Without someone as special as you.

Silent

I'm on a roll today.
Blabbing and typing away.
But I just want to stop.
Let my world breathe for a moment.
Step away from all of this craziness.
To not think.
About anything.
Just for a moment.
I want everything to be silent.

9/11/01

10 years ago
I was little
and didn't know
that the world would change forever.
the planes hit
and i cried
but i didn't know the devastation.
looking back
I shutter
at the thought
of someone killing all of those people.
Now i grieve
with those that lost
and will always remember that day.

Logan.

Write me a poem that's straight from the heart.
I need to hear you say those sweet words to me.
I'm not strong enough without them.
Tell me how much you want me.
Make my heart skip a beat.
Explain to me the passion.
Explain to me the love you feel.
I want to know your heart.

6 years...

ugh. it has been almost 6 years to the date. Maybe that's why I am having dreams. I'm making it sound like someone died, but in reality 6 years ago I came alive. At the age of 15, I learned how to love and be apart of something bigger than myself. Now its over, and I have mixed feelings. albeit I am in a great relationship with someone I love very much, but i don't know that it will ever be completely over my first love.

and there it is.

Saddened and Alone,
cant fight the urge to cry.
But finding the strength to stand tall
and smile.